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Day 37 | You will fail. I am really trying to be optimistic along this journey but some days are much harder than others. I don’t know a worse feeling than that of failure. There are two types of failure I have come across….

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Day 36 | Save the drama for your mama! It’s a dumb opening but I could not help myself. I define drama, for the sake of this post, as overly outward reactions or actions to external or internal situations and feelings that negatively impact…

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Day 25 | Accept and love you for you. What a rollercoaster of a day. It’s mid afternoon and I have felt guilt, I’ve laughed, cried, experienced anger, been jealous, thrived in being super productive and even enjoyed a moment of incredible pride. Not too long ago I would have felt shame and embarrassment for feeling many of these emotions, but not today. For once in my life, I’m accepted who I am. Not as weaknesses but as my strengths. I’m an emotional person who deeply feels. I’m also a wildly analytical and rational human who likes planning and understanding the meaning of everything. I can be serious. I can be goofy. I can be sad and cry but also I can be happy and the life of a party. Sometimes I like to dress up, sometimes I prefer track pants. I love expensive wine and shots of cheap vodka. I am many things, all of which make me, me. Trying to be something I was not only ever held me back. There is nothing wrong with me. All I want now is to continue to explore who I am and learn how to best take advantage of my eclectic nature. God this feels good to say, even better to feel.

Day 25 | Accept and love you for you. What a rollercoaster of a day. It’s mid afternoon and I have felt guilt, I’ve laughed, cried, experienced anger, been jealous, thrived in being super productive and even enjoyed a moment of incredible pride. Not too long ago I would have felt shame and embarrassment for feeling many of these emotions, but not today. For once in my life, I’m accepted who I am. Not as weaknesses but as my strengths. I’m an emotional person who deeply feels. I’m also a wildly analytical and rational human who likes planning and understanding the meaning of everything. I can be serious. I can be goofy. I can be sad and cry but also I can be happy and the life of a party. Sometimes I like to dress up, sometimes I prefer track pants. I love expensive wine and shots of cheap vodka. I am many things, all of which make me, me. Trying to be something I was not only ever held me back. There is nothing wrong with me. All I want now is to continue to explore who I am and learn how to best take advantage of my eclectic nature. God this feels good to say, even better to feel.

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Day 24 | Know your worth. There seems to be an unexpected consequence when finding happiness, being more confidant in who you are and while learning to love yourself. Not sure I saw this one coming. On the journey to finding myself, I seem to have discovered a new found respect for myself and now have higher expectations from life. When you are lost and feel worthless it’s impossible to realize that you should not settle and should always aspire for more. I can now see that I deserve the things that make me happy and I have the confidence to go get them. No matter how hard it may be. Throwback picture from my sales days.

Day 24 | Know your worth. There seems to be an unexpected consequence when finding happiness, being more confidant in who you are and while learning to love yourself. Not sure I saw this one coming. On the journey to finding myself, I seem to have discovered a new found respect for myself and now have higher expectations from life. When you are lost and feel worthless it’s impossible to realize that you should not settle and should always aspire for more. I can now see that I deserve the things that make me happy and I have the confidence to go get them. No matter how hard it may be. Throwback picture from my sales days.

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Day 23 | Loneliness is not always being alone. It’s easy to surround yourself with people to fill time and be a distraction but it is hard to find people you truly connect with that fulfills the human need to be a part of a tribe. I am very grateful for the few with whom I have a true connection, both past and present. Without these people, true loneliness set in and I have to rely on my own company, which has not always been the most positive. As part of my journey, I need to prioritize maintaining the connection I have, rebuilding some I have lost and being open to new people coming into my life. A picture of a time I did not feel alone.

Day 23 | Loneliness is not always being alone. It’s easy to surround yourself with people to fill time and be a distraction but it is hard to find people you truly connect with that fulfills the human need to be a part of a tribe. I am very grateful for the few with whom I have a true connection, both past and present. Without these people, true loneliness set in and I have to rely on my own company, which has not always been the most positive. As part of my journey, I need to prioritize maintaining the connection I have, rebuilding some I have lost and being open to new people coming into my life. A picture of a time I did not feel alone.

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Day 17 | Make the right choice. Today was a hard day. I’m now at a place where I can admit that without it breaking or regressing my progress. The other major difference is that I can recognize when I’m having a hard day and make the choice to change the direction of my thoughts. It sounds easy to simply make a choice to be happy but it’s something I had to learn. I am infinitely grateful that I have found the inner strength to make the right choice. Now, on to happier thoughts and more adventures.

Day 17 | Make the right choice. Today was a hard day. I’m now at a place where I can admit that without it breaking or regressing my progress. The other major difference is that I can recognize when I’m having a hard day and make the choice to change the direction of my thoughts. It sounds easy to simply make a choice to be happy but it’s something I had to learn. I am infinitely grateful that I have found the inner strength to make the right choice. Now, on to happier thoughts and more adventures.

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Day 16 | Sing like you are in the shower. Another night out but this time doing something I know I already love. It’s karaoke night at Duffy’s Southampton. I’ve missed singing in public but am thrilled to have found this monthly activity. Nothing communicates thought, emotion and passion like music. This is my chance to flush any negativity, I may be feeling, out of my system. I’m thinking a little Green Day, Plain White Ts and Mark Cohen will suit this evening well.

Day 16 | Sing like you are in the shower. Another night out but this time doing something I know I already love. It’s karaoke night at Duffy’s Southampton. I’ve missed singing in public but am thrilled to have found this monthly activity. Nothing communicates thought, emotion and passion like music. This is my chance to flush any negativity, I may be feeling, out of my system. I’m thinking a little Green Day, Plain White Ts and Mark Cohen will suit this evening well.

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• Day 13 – Lucky 13 deserves something special and something I have never done before. I’ve always considered getting a tattoo but have not taken the plunge because I could never decide what meant enough to me to permanently mark it on my body. If my journey has taught me anything, it has reinforced how short life really is and that choosing happiness is a choice I need to make. This in my new, and first, tattoo of the chemical dopamine with a semicolon. It’s now on my wrist to constantly remind me that that though I need to acknowledge sadness and hard times, I need to choose my own joy and seek it out. Thanks @greathuron

• Day 13 – Lucky 13 deserves something special and something I have never done before. I’ve always considered getting a tattoo but have not taken the plunge because I could never decide what meant enough to me to permanently mark it on my body. If my journey has taught me anything, it has reinforced how short life really is and that choosing happiness is a choice I need to make. This in my new, and first, tattoo of the chemical dopamine with a semicolon. It’s now on my wrist to constantly remind me that that though I need to acknowledge sadness and hard times, I need to choose my own joy and seek it out. Thanks @greathuron

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Day 9 – 11 | Don’t Panic! A late update because some people have asked. I took the weekend off to clear my head and get focused. It worked. It’s was hard and I was a bit in my head over the weekend but I had a wake up call that truly changed my perspective. I’m back in action and stronger than ever. We only have one life to live and it’s always going to be shorter than you expect. Say yes to the world because you never know what it will offer you.

Day 9 – 11 | Don’t Panic! A late update because some people have asked. I took the weekend off to clear my head and get focused. It worked. It’s was hard and I was a bit in my head over the weekend but I had a wake up call that truly changed my perspective. I’m back in action and stronger than ever. We only have one life to live and it’s always going to be shorter than you expect. Say yes to the world because you never know what it will offer you.

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Day 8 | Friends. A day of reflection. I am incredibly grateful for everyone who has reached out to me with their support. I can promise you that there is no need to concern about my posts. However, sometimes in life, it feels like your journey is a lonely one but it’s been proven to me that I am not alone. This has been an important realization. In life, there are good times, bad times and a lot in between. I’ll admit that I have been living through challenging times but I refuse to let life beat me. I have been taking life one day at a time by focusing on making positive change every day. Though this journey, I already have a sense of self and accomplishment that I have not felt in years but know there is still a long road ahead. Knowing that there are people rooting for me pushes me to succeed even more and makes each step a little easier. Thank you.

Day 8 | Friends. A day of reflection. I am incredibly grateful for everyone who has reached out to me with their support. I can promise you that there is no need to concern about my posts. However, sometimes in life, it feels like your journey is a lonely one but it’s been proven to me that I am not alone. This has been an important realization. In life, there are good times, bad times and a lot in between. I’ll admit that I have been living through challenging times but I refuse to let life beat me. I have been taking life one day at a time by focusing on making positive change every day. Though this journey, I already have a sense of self and accomplishment that I have not felt in years but know there is still a long road ahead. Knowing that there are people rooting for me pushes me to succeed even more and makes each step a little easier. Thank you.

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