Day 35 | Grow up and let go. I have a memory from when I was 8 or 9. I remember feeling that I worked very hard to prepare a bunch of toys to sell in a garage sale my parents were having. At the end of the morning, the money was equally divided and to this day, I can recall the feeling that I deserved a larger share of the earnings for my contribution. Subsequently, I threw a pathetic temper tantrum which only stopped when I got what I wanted. Thinking back now, that memory is one of the most embarrassing moments I have but truthfully, sometimes I still feel and act like this when I don’t get what I want or feel I deserve. I have two takeaways from this memory I need to consider along my journey. 1) What I want is not always fair and I need to look for balance opposed to me demanding my way. I especially need to deal with these situations like an adult. 2) I need let some memories go. This story may seem silly, but to this day, when I think about it, I get embarrassed and feel a great deal of guilt. I need to let those feeling go and move on with life. I want to be different now so as long as I learn from it, I need to move on. Here are some embarrassing photos of me as a kid. I may look sweet but I had a bratty side for sure! April 6, 2023 | No Comments | Instagram Read More
Day 23 | Loneliness is not always being alone. It’s easy to surround yourself with people to fill time and be a distraction but it is hard to find people you truly connect with that fulfills the human need to be a part of a tribe. I am very grateful for the few with whom I have a true connection, both past and present. Without these people, true loneliness set in and I have to rely on my own company, which has not always been the most positive. As part of my journey, I need to prioritize maintaining the connection I have, rebuilding some I have lost and being open to new people coming into my life. A picture of a time I did not feel alone. March 25, 2023 | No Comments | Instagram Read More
Day 22 | Don’t be bored actively. I mentioned this yesterday. I feel like boredom is the root of so much negativity. When I historically filled my free time with work, food, binge watching shows and countless hours of video games, I was allowing myself to be actively bored. Just filling time for the sake of killing time. Don’t get me wrong, nine of those activities are bad, and in fact, I think they can be very healthy but the problem is that I was doing them for the wrong reasons. I was using these as distractions. What I’ve realized is that you need to fill your time with things that make you happy, give you a sense of accomplishment or rewards you with a new experience. Don’t just fill your time to avoid being bored. Live. Explore. Learn. Tonight, I choose to live. March 25, 2023 | No Comments | Instagram Read More
Day 7 | Tonight’s part of my journey is one I am very excited about. Combining 3 things I love into an activity that brings me joy. Tonight I am with the love of my life and some people I love to play some music together, an activity I did not even realize I missed. These are the types of things I need more of in my life. They bring me true joy. Even if I am VERY much out of practice. Thank you Angel, David and Taylor for making my day. March 9, 2023 | No Comments | Instagram Read More
Day 5 | Today’s little activity could be very easy or very hard. Only time will tell. It’s definitely one that I have not been looking forward to but I know it’s absolutely necessary. I’m not going to post the specifics because this one is very personal but I’ll keep the progress in my personal notes. For lack of another picture to include, here is a picture of a wintery beach at sunset on a beautiful but cold day. March 7, 2023 | No Comments | Instagram Read More
What an amazing (though cold) trip to San Francisco this week! Very productive planning sessions in the day and brilliant sight seeing at night! July 1, 2022 | No Comments | Instagram Read More